Senorita Jane

My new friend, room mate too

Something That i bought from retreat

I went to retreat at Kaingaran Tambunan, which is also my solo drive to Tambunan, it's been a great experience. People said, if we never get the experience we'll never know what was it like. I feel so blessed made it there, Even though there's so many temptation before coming to retreat.

If you ask me, i really don't have any idea what was it like, or what is going on. I just felt it & pray.

Early of this year i was planning to go retreat with a friend, but that friend is MIA. I don't know if i am the friend anymore, but i bring along the friend spirit to the retreat. Even more for early of this year, i really gave up on everything, i don't know what to do, how to do, what to say..i just don't seem to get it right for anything that i do anymore. So, i made up my mind to attend the retreat.

I come alone to this retreat, but i always believe i can make another new friends & i did...my room mate, they are not just a friend, but for me a special friend. why i call special? something that i can't mention, i just keep it little secret. My room mate are from Tenom & Sook Keningau, dusun toomod boh gia. when i with them i think i can learn dusun faster then murut....kekekeke....well, dusun & kadazan just a like. I'm glad i spent time with them, even though they are younger than me.

So much prayer that i've learn, we've got a key words to our prayer, that we've never forget & keep saying it in your heart. I believe & have faith with the key words, the healing prayer from the retreat really powerful indeed, i don't know how to describe it, but it's doesn't mean you are immediately healed, it takes time & need to go step by step & by forgiving people that hurt us or people that we've hurt. it's really takes sometime, but everything takes time & depends on us how much love that we can spread to people.

I just need to get rid of what didn't seem right inside me, the deep hurt indeed. i can't seem to clarify anything right now, i'm really exhausted + flu + cough. i will talk about the retreat tomorrow then. Good night (^.*)