Friday, November 27, 2009

Advent is coming...

fuh..really excited when it comes to end of november......starting to early of December...is a new year for Christian Catholic church calender...the year C.....hehehe

really can't wait for more activities to come....especially the reunion part...all the parties will be after the christmas celebration.....

advent is more important though, every of our habbits or activities will be less.....i mean cut..cut..cut..such as eating too...no party are allowed...and also important that all the RC will get their confession before christmas....hehehe...

But Really can't wait that part, everybody close to each other, all family gathering...and new year is coming up...just let my finger cross to all that we've already plan....(^.*)

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Much Relief...

huh!..after so much confusion, depression and some uncontrollable emotions, now all of it become really much better relief. Maybe this is the good sign to starting a new life again.

I really thought about something that the priest said in his mass today, i remember he said that " Dalam hidup Catholic, kita memang hidup dalam keadaan miskin, sekiranya kamu mencari kekayaan dlm hidup sebagai Catholic, kamu silap, Catholic bukan tempatnya. Ini kerana kita semua masih hidup dalam duniawi, bukan dalam surgawi. Janganlah berbuat jahat antara yang lain, jangan membunuh, jangan berzina, janga mencuri, jangan bermalas-malas untuk melaksanakan kewajipan kita dalam membuat tugasan, kerana sekiranya niat sudah ada, itu pun sudah dikira berdosa. Sekiranya kita mendapat kesakitan yang amat sangat, maka pulangannya adalah lebih baik, seperti Tuhan memikul salipnya, begitu juga kita memikul seperti Dia, memikul beban yang kita lalui, tapi adalah lebih baik dan pulangannya juga adalah lebih baik." - by Msgr. Rev. Fr. Primus Jouil

Why don't just using our entire life to help people, makes some charity like Huminodun Foundation did it just a few days ago, and yesterday is the closing for that Charity, gald to be there yesterday. Congrat's to their team too. Even i will contribute for any charity or activity for helping people, by doing that i feel so much happier.I had enough of all past time but i really treasure it all though..i'm really having fun alone and hopefully everything is going to be a blast for this coming december.

oh.. today i was in sacred heart attending rehersal and a mass for the cathecument of baptism, and also become a sponsor for two of my friends. There are 65 people all of them and will be appointed next week (29th /11) at sacred heart at 10.45am.

After that, i went straight home for sec and went to my aunt Jennifer's house to join my mum and my other aunt project. kekeke..trust me on this one...it's all about food and fruit...i had really full eating so much of it, then, my little cousins brought his monopoly games to play it with me. it's really funny when my aunt tells me they are waiting for me to play it, and telling the truth it's makes me feel sleepy because of to much rules i guess..really sleepy and played only half way. then, went straight home.

Tomorrow is monday, and will be doing some photo editing, post editing and designing too. i'm glad to be part of this team, and all of them makes each other to improve our selves. really learn much with them. oh no...sleepy....so, later blog...Gud nite...(^.*)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

i already got the answer

my dear blog,

finally i got the answer to all my question, even though not like what i expected... and like i said..extremely hurt..well, what to do.. i knew it will happen, the broken heart of my even getting worse. but i will try to heal it..

I just want to makes things okay, but it seem extremely getting worse...

it's okay with me now, i get it all...i just couldn't forget about it...

OMG..how long will this take? until dooms i guess..kekeke..

well, i guess it just me after all... i should listen to what sister told me..

i would love to share with all of you , but it's really a long story that i guess i can publish a book...kekeke

my mind is full of memory, my heart is full of pain..but i guess it will gone somehow or someway...

2012

I bet all of you already watch this movie right..hehehe...the question is, is it true? is it happening? If it's really happen, what about us? do we have any hope to live ?

I just can't take my eyes of the movie at all, it's getting more interesting and a bit emotional on family part. I think i was crying but i didn't, hm...as i can see people around me, with their family, kids and a new born baby. it's really sad when the doomsday will happen... pity for all the new generations...i guess i just leave it to God...

Questions:
If you have one day to live, what would you do?

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

If...

i guess i wouldn't get any answer for all the question inside my mind, but i'm still waiting for it...
even though i know the answer probably extremely hurt, but at least i should know the truth right?

For better for worse, is it worth it waiting for so long..to get the answer...
i believe everybody also need the answer to all the question...

If Only i knew what would the answer ...cause for me..it's really mean a lot...
but now the situation is really getting complicated, and it's really getting hard to solve it..i think...

hahaha...blog oh blog.....you always listen to my hurt & pain feeling...pity my blog...
but whatever it is, i love say it everything inside here....kekeke

Sunday, November 15, 2009

i don't know why my heart keep beating so fast but in the same time it's feels hurt, i wonder what if all of this going like the old days, i was wondering am i happy.. or everything is useless.

it seems i can decide anything either, because of there's no more choices and make me breatheless..
probably this thing is really complicated, and make me really confuse at the same time...
what can i do, what am i suppose to do...

Now, my feeling is not healing..but it seems broken some more...
happy and glad that i could meet, but really hurt when there's nothing for me left..zero + empty
i can't go back like it use to be...it's really hurt when someone that you love is gone.....

Everything already past, i won't think about it ( i hope so)..like always people use to say it..
be a survivor, don't look down, move on..let it heal when the time is right...

gosh..my real feeling is in this blog too..and not a nonsence at all..that's what i feel right now...
i couldn't say a word now, can't decide some more....

i can't recall how many times i would say this but all i know is...just hanging there and you'll rock...but there's too much of broken heart... but i will survive...Thank God

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

design what?

hehehe... our company is asking me about the design... like what? what kind of design? which i never been told anything about it...hohoho...even the theme colour, they never told me...

haha..it's funny..and i'm starting with my sketch which i already installed in my computer..hehehe.. and randomly using any colour + what inside my mind = i guess is a crap...
hahaha...but it seems okay ...only the theme colour..which i never know ..kekeke

well, just wait from my head to give it to me...hehe...so i can continue it which is the due date is today...haha...happy about it but confuse about it....just have keep my finger cross...hopefully everything is gonna be fine...


Good day,
Jane (^.*)